Tuesday, February 07, 2006
10:03 PM

as past issues remain unsolved or ignored,
the present just has to live with it.
i'll keep my thoughts in this time,
past experiences have made me wiser.
maybe one day,
you'll see that i wasn't making false accusations.

right now i wonder if its really okay,
or am i just consoling myself that its okay.
i wonder how long i can keep reassuring myself.
i wonder how long this is gon work.
i want to thank you for making my life better.
but i don't want to let this tear my life apart again.
seeing you,
seeing that.
so near, yet so far.
all my regrets.
it doesn't help.
i miss you, though its been long over since.

and now i sit here,
wondering how long it'll be again till i find my life in pieces.
i wish i could express myself better,
but something just keeps on holding me back.

life has changed tremendously.
from an angsty teenager,
i feel like i've changed.
for the good, for the better.
i'm not too sure myself.
something seems missing.
it seems like i don't quite know myself.
this love/hate relationship with myself is beginning to take its toll.

you took a part of me away,
but im still standing here in the past.
you've moved on,
and theres no return.

give me a dose of anaesthesia.
numb this mind.
as waves of nostalgia hit me,
time flies by so quickly.

and he was right.
guess he knows best.
my closest kin.
guess i should learning how to appreciate those around me.

don't wanna let these walls crumble.
or am i too lost for salvation.
and i hate the person i've become.
suddenly i've lost the courage and drive to keep myself alive.
maybe i'm back to where i started out.

played;