Thursday, May 18, 2006
6:03 PM

i tried to saw off those chains,
tried to save you from this prison,
but you kept on pushing me away.
offered my hand,
a chance for salvation.
you never reached out.
salvations dead now.
don't say fuck you.
you chose the monsters over your liberation.

apologies for today's verbal vomit?
at this point in time,
no.
but i'd apologise for being a bitch.
i need an outlet sometimes.

i really treasure you as a friend.
and you can just roll your eyes at the screen right now and say fuck you bitch.
i don't care.
i just want to let out this angst in me.

its because i treasure the friendship so much that this makes me fucking angry.

we tried so hard to reach out to you.
to assure you and try be there for you.
but all we got in the end was your black face and curt replies.

do you know how many times we called and made the first move?
and so, it resulted with a slap in the face.
that night seshaa was drunk was a pretty good example.
rejection isn't pretty

and you say you don't want to make any decisions.
but lets make a reality check.
i think you already have.
subconciously.

sometimes, its really all in your head.
note that every scentence that comes out from your mouth starts with a huge letter I
have you ever really tried to put yourself in our shoes.
do you know what it feels like?
we tried our best to reassure you.
but forget it.
its never gon be enough.
say i might be going over the board.
but i really want to let you know all this.
reality check no.2

why do you always have to group everyone in cliques?
why can't you think of it as friendships?
you said you wanted to be an individual.
then whats up with all the clique nonsense?
reality check no. 3

i think i could go on,
but i'd restrain myself.

you might hate me for this.
but im telling you the truth.
and it always hurts.

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