Thursday, November 30, 2006
11:46 PM

i've figured that its okay to be narcissitic on my own blog.
like, hello its mine.
so well, i don't care.
im gonna ramble.

reflecting upon the past few weeks/months.
i don't quite think i deserve to enjoy this long break.
i know i could have put in more effort into those books.
i just don't feel at ease.
yes, im starting to feel guilty.

it seems like whenever i get something i want badly.
i feel like i don't quite deserve it,
nor do i treasure it.
on the other hand,
i wonder what i did wrong when i don't get what i want.

i wonder when things would start turning around.
but whatever, who am i to complain?
what rights do i have to want it.

work tmr, dreading another round of foot binding.

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