Sunday, February 25, 2007
4:02 AM

alcohol and ciggarettes,
so they've become part of my everyday life.
if i never had these vices, i wonder how i'd be living my life.
would my life be plain? monotonous?
would i be a different person?

there are people who live their live happily and meaningfully without these vices.
can i be one of those?
maybe not right now.
i've come to the conclusion that i'm still too young, immature and selfish to live that way.
i drink to get high everyday,
just for pure entertainment, to kill time, and to waste my life away.
to put it simply, i don't think about others.

i don't quite know what i want out of this life yet.
there are still so many shades of grey.
i can't draw a line between many things.

people say maturity comes with age.
i disagree however.
i think maturity depends on how you've been brought up.

you know, when people get too comfortable with their own lives.
they start to get used to it.
and thats when, the wrong thing becomes normal to them.
this is why so many areas of my life are shaded in grey.
i live a comfortable life,
and im not willing to step out of it.
not just yet anyway.

im just a kid.

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