If screaming is the only medium whereby you can find solace, to that I will turn a deaf ear. I will not turn into your reflection.
The constant X's which keep appearing on the bottom of the page everytime i log into my school website don't mean anything to me anymore. Blame that on arrogance and laziness. The occasional pangs of guilt visit me every once in a while, however that still isn't enough to stop me from leaving school early or skipping school all together. Whatever, I know I've fucked up this sem and I don't care mom. At least it was my choice to do badly. Leave me alone.
Responsibility has become new cause for conflict. Or perhaps, I still don't which matters more to me. I need the courage to follow through.
I think I'm changing, or perhaps its just self discovery. Either way, I'm embracing it.
Well, at least I know I love you, and I think of you every day. Its amazing how almost 6 months have passed. Hmm, its pretty amusing still.
